Monday, October 26, 2009

New Job, Clean Slate

Tonight was my 2nd day at my new job. I haven't worked in over 4 years...well, worked a paying job anyway. It's very strange getting to know my coworkers. We talk about kids, where we're from, likes and dislikes, etc....all the normal things people talk about with acquaintances. Except that I have a secret. In a way it's nice not being known as the girl whose baby died. It's nice being a normal girl with a husband and a 2-year old...a seemingly happy normal person who isn't grieving. Of course that's not who I am, but it's relaxing to pretend.

Eventually, my secret will probably come out. I'm not sure how. But things like this always do come out unless you flat-out lie. Questions like--did you have a natural birth? (yes women do talk about this) My answer, "With my first son, I had pain meds and was induced, but with my 2nd son it was natural." Wait...2nd son? oops...there goes my secret. I just hope that when it does, my coworkers aren't super weird around me.

1 comment:

  1. {{{hugs}}}
    I am so sorry for your loss.

    ...I found your blog on the Miscarriage, Stillbirth and Infant Loss Directory.